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[OS] Restraint

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Another solo piano piece, mostly improvised - recorded in one take, with minimal edits to the original. Vastly imperfect, but perfectly human. Just the way all music should be.

As I was playing this, I got this image stuck in my head, of a significantly disabled child with a dream. Fighting brutally every step of the way, but with support from someone close to them. Then, just before they take the final step toward realizing their dream, the person who's supported all this time suddenly dies. With no source of support, and the pain of losing someone so close, they fall short of the dream, living out the rest of their days forever wounded by what they almost had.

It's a very sad story, but it's what occurred to me, and defines the feeling I was trying to express.

Nonetheless, enjoy.


You can now purchase this and some of my other pieces in a lossless format for 1$ (or more, if you choose) from my Bandcamp page (obsidiansnow.bandcamp.co m), if you want to help support my music a bit and listen to it in lossless quality. ;D

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I find RQZDraco sees much like I do when hearing this piece. The only difference is I had something smiliar happen in my life, but not quite the same. I would prefer not to talk about it. This melody brings peace to my heart when I think about that girl. Thank you.

ObsidianSnow responds:

I'm glad to hear that you find such appreciation for this piece. Thank you for your response, 7thsin628.

This sounds like something Sufjan Stevens would sing on top of. I like the plodding raindrop-like rhythm to it. I forgot which word there is for that - rubato or fermata? You use great rubato. It's cool that you record yourself playing the music too - most people would just plug the notes into a MIDI file and have a robot piano play it, in which case it would sound good, but not quite like this. Nice work.

ObsidianSnow responds:

Rubato is the word you're looking for, I think. It refers to what's essentially a bend in the tempo for expressive purposes, and I do a lot of that in my playing. Fermata is just a long hold on a note, where the length is arbitrary.

I definitely prefer the sound of real playing, too.

Thanks for the review!

so perfect... gloomy... but perfect...

i'm seeing another reflection when i listen to this song...

one day there was a boy who always been alone, he had no friends-or you can say he was living in a complete solitude. his world was gray, even the flowers are monochromatic. silence is everywhere, not even a sound of breeze... until he met a girl. he asked her to go with him, she nodded, and they finally fell in love. his world got brighter and more cheerful. he lived his live again. they may live happily ever after... but the fate has something just around the corner.

it was the girl's birthday. the boy knew that the girl was always wanted to come to a valley, so he took her there. the valley was beautiful, butterflies and birds were flying happily. the stream down the valley was flowing just like their love, flowing on an endless path. they were very happy, and time passed by very fast.

it was sunset already. the girl coughed real hard. he asked her if she was okay, and she nodded. but the boy knew something's wrong. the girl was very pale, she even didn't have enough power to lift her head up. she rested her head on the boy's shoulder. she was smiling.

"i knew the day of my death will come this fast. i thought my life will be very gray, but thanks to you i gained my will to live again," she said.
"do you know? this cough..." she stopped talking to cough, "is not curable. at all. i was going to surrender. but with you, i knew... i knew my last days will be very happy..."

"i love you... right now... and later in the afterlife... always..."
and those was her last words...

i'm crying right now, thanks to this song, i finally can contemplate what love is. i'll promote this song to my friends. sorry for my bad english-i'm not an english speaker myself-but this song makes me want to write an art... because your song is truly an art. a magnificent art.

ObsidianSnow responds:

Thanks so much for sharing your experience of the music with me - it means a lot. It's interesting, too, that although the stories we experienced were different, they were still very, very similar. Music does seem to be a language of its own.

Don't worry about your English - I was able to understand what you meant very clearly, and it means even more that you'd write such an extensive review in a second (or third?) language.

Thanks so much for your review, RZQDraco.

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Dec 1, 2011
4:02 AM EST
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6.3 MB
3 min 29 sec

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