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If I Could Choose

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EDIT 02/27/2011: MY NEW ALBUM "RELATIONSHIT REVISITED IS OUT! GO LISTEN AND DOWNLOAD FROM http://faggotsapiens.band camp.com/album/relationsh it-revisited

Producing was easier this time. I'm starting to understand. Now I guess people can concentrate on reviewing the song instead of the quality ;) No, really.

This is a song about happy people trying to help the ones who are sad. It's irritating isn't it. So I bled it out in form of a song. There's a contrast of happy-sounding music and angst-ridden lyrics. I've been mostly listening to Nirvana, Manson and Alice In Chains lately, so you can probably hear the influence. I haven't recorded bass to this version. Bass will be included on another version that will be on an album sometime in the future.

Oh and put your volume to the max!!

Lyrics:

Your happiness is radiating
My middle-finger indicating
Dissatisfaction so please disappear
Wish I could suck and absorb your luck
But instead I get drunk and stay stuck
Wish you could see the world through my eyes
Oh how I wish your life was as fucked up as mine

If only you could understand
The meaning of the words I say
If only you knew how hard I tried
Before ending up this way
If I could choose then I would choose to be somebody else
Pull me out of this pit, put an end to this trip

All my random acts of violence
Are just to escape the silence
I don't remember when the clouds appeared
But they never rain on you
I'M FEELING ABSOLUTELY BLUE
Can't cure the terminal disease
I BLEND RIGHT IN WITH THE SEA

If only you could understand
The meaning of the words I say
If only you knew how hard I tried
Before ending up this way
If I could choose then I would choose to be somebody else
Pull me out of this pit, knee-deep in this shit

Now I'm waiting, I'm waiting for luck to arrive
Till then I'll stay out of light
The end of time, if it's the end of time
Well, I guess that it serves all of us right

How can you tell me what to choose
You never had to choose a thing
Since the day you entered this world
You've always had everything
And that's what ruined you
Oh that's what keeps me feeling ill
Why should we climb all the way up there you could just jump down now wouldn't that be easier?

If only you could understand
Fucking anything at all
If only you knew how hard I tried
Before started to fall
If I could choose then I would choose to be somebody better
Pull me out of this pit, knee-deep in this shit

PS. Watch out for my next song "Off the Radar", next week!

Insincerely, sHANze

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gonna put this in a video game

ShanZE responds:

Be my guest! Let me know when I can check it out ;)

Yeah this is super different for sure. Gonna disagree with that last review and say your vocals were pretty much perfect for what you were making here. You sounded tired... of the bullshit lol.

edit: ok just realized I misread and they were talking about the drums, speaking of, I liked the experimental thing you started at 4:05 for a few seconds. Didn't notice the drums being super fucked up overall but hey what do I know Im just some asshole browsing newgrounds lol

Amazing guitar work. The drums are just fine, maybe a little more oomph. Bass is gnarly as well.Once again, nice man. Great vocals and very nice writing.

Great song dude, always the best part of the day

Sincerely fucking nice song

You got nice at almost all! i just think the drums got fucked up in the song (A.K.A didn't liked the drums)

ShanZE responds:

Yeah the drums are usually the weakest link for me since I have to program and use drum machines (which I dislike in this kind of music :D ). I can play this and that but drums... not so much!

I wonder why it's this song that people like so much, I find this one a little boring!? Maybe because it's so old that I've just gotten bored of it :D

Thanks for the review and the nice score!

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Faves:
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Downloads
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Votes
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Score
4.74 / 5.00

Uploaded
Oct 2, 2009
12:22 PM EDT
Genre
Grunge
File Info
Song
7.2 MB
5 min 14 sec

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