I don't know where to start, I've discovered this flash right when it was frontpaged back in 2012, and I found it absolutely beautiful. I've read the more recent comments where you've stated that she left you. Honestly the only thing I can tell you is hold on and keep your head up while going forward, time heals everything and I'm sure there are better times ahead. This flash always brings tears to my eyes, always. I know what it is to give everything you got (even if that hurts you) just to be with the person you love the most, and that phrase at the end are some words that I always keep in my mind. My friend, I have no idea what you are up to or how is your personal life, but know that 4 years later your flash still brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my face (while thinking about my girlfriend of five years who I really hope will become my wife some time in the future) because it will always remind me that if someone it's important and you love her/him giving everything you have to be with them it's not wasted energy, it's the very essence of what defines us as humans.
I honestly desire just the very best for you.
Ricardo Requena (which its my real name by the way)