I met a girl at a college event and asked her out. She was in a sexy marilyn monroe costume.
So we go out saturday to see Cloud Atlas. Within the first 30 minutes of being in my car(movie started at 6:45, got there at 5) I was already inside her pants fingering her. Now she proclaims she is no hoe, that she doesn't fuck on the first date, etc. BUT I know the rules to women, turn them on enough and they will throw all their rules out the window.
Never once did she say stop, I don't want to, please don't, get off me, or anything. So we watch the movie, and my hand is inbetween her legs nearly the entire time(she is a freeze baby, it was to keep her warm ;) lol). So we get out of the movie and we go back into my car and I drive around to the back to a more secluded, dark part of the parking lot so whatever may happen won't be seen.
We start kissing again, jump into the back seat and start fingering, foreplay, etc. I make as though I was going to go down on her, and zip down her pants and see her disgusting chicken neck pussy/clit/thing. I don't know how womens vaginas can get so disgusting(tip for the young, most cute girls have ugly ass vaginas), so I said screw that and sit back up and start pulling her pants the rest of the way off her legs. She was wearing skinny jeans, so they got caught on her ankles and shin areas so she had to assist me in taking them off(my car is a tiny cavalier).
Once again she said I don't usually fuck on the first date but I thought, Shit, she let me take her pants AND panties all the way off, she is soaking wet, I whispered into her ear sexually saying "Say you want me, I know you do." and she purred back into my ear she wanted me, so I don't know how much more primed for fucking this girl could be.
So my dick is dry obviously so I rub the tip on her clit/upper vaginal area to get it wet, to no avail. I spit on it and ask her to spit into my hand to help lube it. She does so and I lube it up and slip it in, she moaned, kind of moved her hips with me.
Then suddenly she stops me, saying I don't want to do this. I pull out instantly, and recoil back. I instantly put my pants on, then seeing she is kind of upset I step out of the back seat and stand by the side of my car and let her get re-dressed in private.
She suddenly changes her tune, saying she was turned on but didnt want to do any of it, I reply with "Lose my number, I have no attraction to you anymore, I understand not wanting to do it but I don't like weak wishey-washey women. I don't have any inclination to see you again, let me drive you back to where you parked."
Which I could tell pissed her off more than me actually trying to fuck her, I suppose she really liked me. Word for the wise though, if you are with a crazy girl like this, end it on her terms and cut your losses. I should have kissed her ass and apologized but fuck that, I know what she wanted and she knew what I was trying to do, it wasn't my fault.
The whole time we were talking she bitched about how her ex was a pussy and she likes a man who takes charge and is a real 'man' so to speak, so I took that as her wanting me to be a bit more aggressive and animalistic in a way, being a rough man as a counterpart for her soft femininity, so I took her hand in mine without asking, kissed her passionately on the drop of a dime and made the moves I assumed she wanted me to, which I assume were correct because at no time did she tell me to back off or stop being so forward. I had already even kissed her at the party the first time we met and had made seductive little touches, etc as I walked past her (quick glancing touches on the inner soft side of her elbow while I walked past and when she was talking to her friends, didn't look back after I did it, her friends squealed and said I was cute, looked like a G).
But anyway last night at 10:30 I got a call from the police dept, saying I was a suspect in a rape charge and that I may be called by a detective within the next week or so if her story is convincing for them to follow through with it. I know nothing was forced, but she never literally said "Please fuck me" which terrifies me.
Now after I drove away from the darker area I park across the lane from her car and she decides she wants to sit in my back seat and lecture me on how I'm an asshole and all this for about ten minutes and that and how she is no hoe, as though can convince herself out of what she just did with me. I could tell intense regret in her voice but never did I force anything on her. She let herself get carried away at the worst and at the best it was a misunderstanding on both parts.
Who the hell stays in the car and lectures their rapist about how they are an asshole and how they arent a hoe. For that matter why would she even consider herself a hoe, in her mind she was JUST RAPED. Fucking retarded girl.
I have no idea what to do, I don't want my family to find out, I don't want to go to prison for a false accusation of rape, and not only that but because she accused me of rape, the cop told me that that would be on my permanent record forever. If anyone does a background check on me it will always come up with "Accused of rape".
What the fuck do I do? I didn't sleep at all last night, I can't stop thinking about it. I've been drinking since I woke up to try to forget its happening. I'm so afraid. I've never felt terror like this since my sister went missing for a few days.
TL,DR Tupac has my back, Cloud Atlas was terrible and made no sense, bitches are crazy.
Is marijuana addictive? Yes, in the sense that most of the really pleasant things in life are worth endlessly repeating.
