At 4/22/07 07:27 PM, Hammi wrote:
Warning: this thread is friggin deep, only read if you got a spare life.
Yes im bitchin, if you dont like it then i dont care. If interested, you may stay and listen to what i got to say k? Im not going to submit any other art here without anyone asking for it or whatsoever. I just want to talk and empty out my heart and my thoughts about me and art, which is also why i tagged this thread with [Talk]. I just simply want to discuss my situation and issues with art, so dont flame me without an undeniable reason. You may sorta call this an "art blog" or something. Now, ive been feeling pretty low lately. Ive put some effort here and there on various sketches. All i got is a pencil, an eraser and a bunch of blank papers. I started off the first time making fanarts of an anime i like, then i moved on making other stuffs, some selfportraits, some furry tributes etc, and they eventually ended up being submitted online.
Lots of people start drawing this way, and, well, this seems normal.
When the Art Forum was founded, i started showing off my work lil by lil. When the collabs started rising, i found something to do concerning art and i joined some of them, and i also got in on the NG Sketchbook Tour (mad props to Luis).
I wish I could get in =(. Collabs were cool though, glad I joined in time for them!
But then over the weeks, ive been struck with art blocks and other things. Ive been browsing thru BBS instead and looking on others art and giving critiques.
Yeah, I know how that feels; right now school takes my art time =(
Im starting to think now that my art sucks dick...
I thought that if i just continued sketching, i would get better and stand out more like a decent pencil artist. But now after what ive seen here, im outmashed.
Heh, no matter how good you are there is always someone better, and if you keep drawing then you will improve; I don't think you can ever hit an infinite plateau.
What the hell was i thinking? Did i really think that i could impress anyone here with my rotten pencil sketches?
Dude, they're fine; I like your style and your art is a million times better than some.
With dozens of things to do in my life, i got my hands full enough than sitting and doing "art". I made a bunch of sketches for use in collabs here, but who cares? Me?
Everyone loves a decent submission to a collab.
There are so many bright artists out there, but im starting to realize that im not one of them.
What, you mean like Razac and Zach and stuff? (and poxpower and mindchamber too, duh).
Think they started out perfect? They may have started out earlier, or been more genetically blessed when it came to learning art; but all of them probably started earlier. It takes time, a long fucking time.
And when i say bright, i mean true artistic creative artists with lots of power in their handgrips leading their pencils on their canvas/sheets.
Well, you're creative. And power comes through practice; draw if you love drawing.
Can this art thing possibly be my call? I once thought. Im now doubting on my so called "drawing skills". Im not an artist, im a dreamer. Ive done so many mistakes in my sketches.
Everyone does, that is what sketches are for. And, yes, your art is your call.
Dont misunderstand, i really appreciate the advices and critiques, but it has almost lost effect on me. No matter how many times i try to correct my art, it still looks like crap. Thats what it is. Because i always do something wrong on my sketches, my art stinks. I actually thought that i was doing great, but now i better put my hands down.
Well, seeing as your art never, as far as I can tell, looks like crap, do you mean it doesn't get better when we point out mistakes? Maybe we aren't finding the right mistakes. Also, no matter how good you make your art you will always find truckloads of shit wrong with it; at least I do.
And i was going to participate in the Japanese Vending Machines art contest, so i started drawing, even when i already felt low and was full of doubt. Then i just stopped. No point in continuing, because i better admit it. Im outmatched, compared with the others.
Yeah, I don't even try entering the contests, and I didn't even really like this one. (great Idea, but I had no inspiration).
Everybody else is ahead me, and im way behind. That convinced me, and 2 days have passed. I cant move on. I cant keep up. I need a reason to continue.
This might be true, the contests are normally very difficult to win, or even just have a decent entry.
I have disappointed myself thinking that i could achieve something by holding on to this shit pencil and this shit eraser. I feel like my "art" is overlooked.
You can achieve something, but not with this attitude. Your "shit" pencil and eraser are your tools, man. You have to love them and love art.
What should i do? Whore out the same sketches over and over again? Hell no.
My motivation has hit the bottom. Am i hearing a countdown?
Make it bounce.___________________and, No you are not.
Does it matter if i stand up again? Or should i just rot down in the basement of Newgrounds?
It matters and you shouldn't rot, that's awful. Newgrounds doesn't even have a basement as far as I know.
Maybe i should just give it up and put away the pencil, and continue with voting on flash movies and stuff.
Well, voting is good, and I stopped voting when I found the art forum. Don't give up sketching though!
How could i think that i was worthy as a sketcher? I look at mine comparing with the others and i go like... bleh.
Well, I was starting to feel a little bit like this when Razac talked to me and said his art was like mine at my age, which made me feel a hell of a lot better, because I was using the wrong fucking scale. There is no scale for art, but when people are in awe of yours you know it will be much harder to get better, because less people will critique, right?
Newgrounds got a load of good artists with cool blend style, and mine is definately not a part of this. Ive tried to do my part as good as possible, until i realized that the whole thing ive done is for nothing. How can i call all this shit "art"? Ive almost lost it. Hammi4Real? Yeah right... Im nothing.
For nothing? Did you like doing the art? Then it is not for nothing. You haven't lost it, and, judging by your picture I found while checking out all of your art in your post; you are more kickass-looking than mindchamber.
Since the rules say that i have to post my artwork for advices and comments, ill do that. Bleh -_- You may comment or whatever, like if anyone would really care. If you decide to ignore this thread, then i clearly understand that. Im sorry if i wasted your fucking life with this if i neccesarily have to make it clear. You may move on and forget that i ever made this thread.
This wasn't a waste of my life, but now I can't finish my project this morning. Just fucking great.
Also, Hammmi, you use good English compared to most NG'ers. That is big bonus points for you!