Took n-bomb and smoked salvia again yesterday. The first time was amazing and took me to another planet, the next time was like 'you've already visited here once, you can't come here again', it was like the Salvia Goddess was telling me not to go there. I also thought really strongly that I view the world in an individualistic way, like we're all seperate entities, but then when I smoke Salvia I realise we're all joined by love and that there is a spiritual dimension and that my materialistic worldview doesn't account for this. And it was like the Salvia Goddess was telling me that this is the case and that I have to learn this. Then my brain was screaming at me to stay in the Salvia experience so I could understand what this phenomenal spirit was telling me, but that to do so would make me go crazy, and as I sobered up I was just so confused.
Most people don't have spiritual experiences on Salvia; I definitely did, and it is one of the strangest and most profound experiences I have ever had. Obv I was tripping on psychedelics when I smoked the salvia; that's the only time it gives me an experience I would describe as 'nice', in fact it's incredibly nice. I don't even laugh uncontrollably after I smoke it, such is the number of times I have smoked it and how familiar I am with it. But that religious experience was weird, fucking bizarre. I really thought I had broke my brain; it bummed me out.