I dont even feel like I'm controling it

It's promising, but the controls definitely need some work. Maybe allow the player to use the mouse to control the character? If you're dead set on the current controls, then maybe consider tweaking the avatar so that you know which way it's going.

Good game. The controls take some time to get used to and need a bit of fixing up though.

-not sure what the goal of the game is. Is there some way to show what the objective is? There doesn't have to be a win-state, but knowing what you have to do (stay alive as long as possible) will help a lot.

-also, controls aren't entirely clear as to how they affect the ball. It's hard to see the turning of the ball at glance (the yellow/beige and white are too similar), and it doesn't feel responsive because it takes too long to turn.

It's an interesting idea, but it needs more clarity. Hope that helps, and good luck!