This is beautiful and deserves more views, however yesthisisnotNGmaterial. I wonder if you have more works like this, I enjoyed it a lot.
On a more critical side:
I wonder, though, what was the point of the upload - to share a catarthic feeling or was there a much, much deeper meaning that I totally missed? It sort of seemed, as the title says, to be a stream of melancholic thoughts and feelings rather than a delivered message to the society.
I gave it a 3 out of 5 because, although I intuitively liked it, it seemed a bit untangible (I don't know how else to describe the feeling that I got, dammit!). However, I would like to see more of these kinds of works on NG. If I hadn't faved you, I probably never would have stumbled upon this.