You are deserving of happiness and a long, beautiful life. Take a deep breath, okay? You are doing just fine, you are and always will be enough. You can't control everything, so stop blaming things on yourself when you couldn't have done anything about it. You just do what you can alright? Take care of yourself, drink water, get under blankets when you're cold, cry when you need to. You are a beautiful, magnificent being. You are loved, even if sometimes you don't feel like you are. Rest well tonight, you deserve a good rest after a long day.