Rap for my momma since I ain't been home in a while. Mom if you're reading this I love you.
I wrote these lyrics out a month ago, only had a chorus until I started writing a beat and changed a pronoun. This is the result. Software discussed below. Lyrics are in the order written. Critique welcome.
wish I could say I cared
wish I could say I try
I know it makes you scared
When I ain't there sometimes
Say you love me fore you go
With a lump in ya throat
kiss me bye it's my luck
To know the kind that comes before throwing up
Momma Be nice if the world could ever hold its color
Sometimes wish I could erase everything
divide between being alone and alive
Separating the pressure from always wasting my time
And sometimes I feel like I really let it slip
Like the cracks in the concrete broke your back as a kid
You'd look up so I could talk down from the left
And Invent new ways to boundaries overstep
Be nice if people stopped telling you to shut up
Sometimes I wish I could erase all of this
The divide tween to succumb and survive
and V for vendetta tween live and alive
And sometimes feel like I'm ready to freaking slip
Like the jokes out my mouth I would crack as a kid
But look up now momma, just pick up yo head
I'll always be yours, yeah, we went over it
Dear momma wish that I could see your face
It's been over a year now and I'm in another place
I could try to find a way but it's complicated
I wish I had the time since I graduated
Only took six months to forget the smell of cigarettes
Now every other smoker got me sniffling cause I let
Too many damn emotions govern all the thoughts in my head
about the happy memories you missing now that I left
Dear momma hear me pray that you're okay
been a year and a half now I'm bout a half as sane
I could try to see you but it's complicated
I got the time now but I can't take it
another six months and I smelled your favorite cigarettes
Remembered how I hate em but it was a fucking blessing
been too damn long now I'm trying to clear my head
The TV's so loud, all I wanna tell you is
Software: Mixcraft 9. Almost exclusively freeware VSTis. Exception being Avenger synth for applying white noise to a hi-hat and one or two leads. The rest are Surge (free), run through a lot of OneKnob and compressors.
All percussion is freeware. USSR Elsita drum machine with settings in Russian, various hihats and kicks. Molot (hammer) compressor. Aggressive Drums VST for snare. Crash VSTi for auxiliary crashes. Cymatics impact sample. 99sounds hats for layers.
Bass, CS One bass and Ob-Xd, layered with KSHMR Essentials Kick for processing. It just worked. I actually think KSHMR is on every percussion instrument, if not most synths. Bass signal is run through Molot and KSHMR Essentials Kick.
That distorted noise in the left and right channel is me humming into Waves Berzerk distortion and some OneKnob plugins like drive. Every vocal track is run through GW VoiceCentric and ButchVig vocals and some misc doublers and choruses. I wanted to try cronching them.
In total there are about 30 tracks. Project time, in total about 50 hours, including writing lyrics.