Track 10 off my upcoming album "The Sky's Exploding". I wasn't going to upload tracks before the album comes out, but I'm releasing it on the 31st so I kinda have to if I want to get all the tracks on newgrounds in 2019 since you can only upload like 4 songs a day.

Today is the 9th anniversary of my father's death, and since I reference it in this song I figured it'd make sense to upload it today.

This is the newest track on the album and was actually written this month, and it wasn't originally going to be on this album.

So my next album will be called 25, and will be 25 minutes long with 8 tracks, starting off from me writing a few songs I didn't know what to do with, as well as two 5-6 minute songs, but eventually I decided on the theme of 25, and although I haven't written every track on there, I know exactly what I'm going to do for them, and then I wrote this and I didn't know what to do with this one, because it's 5 minutes long and wouldn't fit within the runtime constraints I put on 25, even if thematically and sound-wise it would fit, but it also fit pretty well on here so I decided to ultimately make it the penultimate track here and I think it worked well, also helps better close out the year, and this era of Now It's Art (since I'm clearly using new guitar and drum VST's now)

also for some reason when I wrote the lyric "I don't wanna be a haunting/I just wanna be somebody" it really hit me, like it felt so profound, probably because the rest of the lyrics are just the same old shit that I constantly write about (which ironically I worked into the themes of the song) I guess it was refreshing to see myself come up with something kinda poetic for once.

LYRICS

Oh what I'd give for
a chance to feel it again
But I just squander
the chances I get now and then
So I just keep on
repeating the same old spit
I swear I would be fine
if I could just move on from it
again

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it now

But I will keep on
and keep going harder
'cause if I don't now
I'll never get farther

And I keep saying
that I'll start tomorrow
I'll fix everything
But instead I feel sorrow
Again

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

'cause I'm just so scared
I've got nowhere that I can go
to feel happy again
Except my friends
But I don't wanna be a burden
to them again

I'd be so happy
if I weren't here right now
I'd be so happy
if I weren't in this town
I'd be so happy
if god would put me down
I can't be so happy
so instead I guess I'll drown

I'd be so happy
if you could just asnwer why
I'd be so happy
if I could manage to cry
I'd be so happy
If I didn't want to die

All the time

But do I really wanna?
I don't know, if I'm honest.
I don't wanna be a hautning.
I just wanna be somebody.

And I just really wanna
Do nothing but make a lot of
Art and animation
that my dad would be proud of

'Cause he didn't seem to like
what I was making
when he was alive
And I don't really like it either

'Cause I can do better
'cause I've now got better
In more ways than one
And now I've realized it again

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it

It's just the same again
Things are the same again
This is the same again
I don't wanna talk about it now

If I could do it before
I can again
I've gotten stronger
and I still have my friends

I can't just sit here
And keep doing nothing
'cause I'll just fall back
into it and I'll be here
Again

I'll try again