Track 1 of 5 off my new EP "this was supposed to be happy", out now on bandcamp: https://nowitsart.bandcamp.com/album/this-was-supposed-to-be-happy

I made this (along with the other tracks) in December 2020, and am only able to finally put them out now. I wanted to get this out on 12/30/21 but you know nothing is ever going to go to plan with me.

Normally I would go into overly-extended detail about what all the songs mean and whatever, but I'm not ready to yet for these. Not enough time has passed still, somehow.

I will say though, that this is only part 1 of this project, so there is definitely more to come.

LYRICS

I'm just hoping that things will get better

I'm just waiting for things to get better

Just keep telling myself it gets better

I just really hope it gets better soon

Every time I start to feel like

Everything is finally right

Things just go south after a few

Now I just don't know what I should do

I can't get along with you

I'm just hoping that things will get better

I'm just waiting for things to get better

Just keep telling myself it gets better

I just really hope it gets better

'Cause if things just don't get better

I don't know if I'll get better

'Cause I've sure got worse since ever

God I just hope things get better soon

I guess I just made things get worse

I'm just forced to live with this curse

Now my head swells with thoughts of death

Every intake is a heavy breath

I don't know if I hurt you

What if I made it all up?

I'm just a worthless sack

Why can't everyone just shut up?

Be happy, and please don't send me back

I can only take so much so please stop

I'm sorry I said anything please stop this

I just stood up for myself, but I'll stop

I can't take anymore now I just feel worthless

I'm just hoping that things will get better

I'm just waiting for things to get better

Just keep telling myself it gets better

I just really hope it gets better soon