The fear in the first notes
The fear that they'll collapse underneath the fear in your throat
There is no way out when the tunnels collapse
We made sure of it

We made sure that you never survive yourself
The sorrow in your heart isn't yours

I dream the same nightmares day in and day out
You are always there for me
You terrify me, yet you keep me safe

I fear the words out of my mouth
When I'm terrified I'm seeing your reaction on your face
Disguised is all I've ever known
So it'll take some time to rearrange myself

Slowly but surely I fade away into the night sky
With only myself

I pray for someone like you
To change my sorrow
But what a fuckin' shame to know
That I am lost
Deep in my scars
With no one to save me from my reasoning
Except for myself

Would I ever exchange my words for somebody elses
I dream of a meadow with only the wind
It takes on the voices and they all descend
Into a jar

I take it with me
and carry it like a scar

Listen to them
I pray that they'll answer
The words I scream to them
But they never listen

Maybe my words don't mean enough to them
Maybe I'm a coward for never trying to find myself

Or maybe I am the man I dreampt I would be
Never thought I would embrace the light
But the death of you took it's sweet time
To register on my mind

And now I'm free from you
I'm free from the memories of the past
You told me I would never forget

I forgot you
Inside of our words
You never occurred to me
And yet I mention you here

And yet I find your grave so barren
I never visit and now it's so cold
The wind on your head doesn't explain your story

What a shame you hadn't found any part of yourself
In the storm you lost yourself in

Maybe I am longing for some reason
To reach out and see how your story ends

I truly think that I don't care
And that these words are because
I don't have anything left to say

I stumble upon my fingers
I stumble upon my fingers
As I struggle to keep up
The pain is growing stronger every time I strum

Yet still I go into
The cave I lit up for you
I hope to guide you out one day
But you are blind to the signalling

You don't know anything about anything
Anything at all

What you know
Is a lie
You tell yourself every single day that you want to die
What kind of life is that

Do you know yourself at all

Do you pray to a god that doesn't care for you at all