Lyrics by Me
Beat by Noodles

(How many ways) can I start again//
(How many ways) can I wreck my car again//
(How many ways) can my luck run out//
(How many downs) til I'm down and out//

(How many days) can I be late//
(How many ways) can I decay//
(How many days) full of nothingness//
Until I- say g'day and succumb to this//

(I been) back stabbed by the sharpest knives//
I died alive, alone on the darkest night//
Well I survived, but somehow lost my light//
I lost my time to shine, and my mind to time//

(I'm lost in rhyme) my boss is an awful guy//
The cost of life is also far too high//
You're all too kind but all y'all was off the mark//
I crossed the line, dropped my guard, cross my heart//

I hope to die my wounds cauterize//
So all the loss and anguish is caught inside//
It's all combined and safely locked away//
The pain confined contained as I decay //

And I decay by day as I hibernate//
To hide away the rage inside of me//
I been through shit I wouldn't wish upon my enemies//
And I'm pretty certain the worst of it's still ahead of me//

It's all gone and it washed away//
It all dissolves and fades as I decay,//
(And I say) IDK when they ask me what I been doin' lately//
Cuz I decay that's exactly what I been doin' lately//

It's all gone and it washed away//
It all dissolves and fades as I decay,//
(And I say) IDK when they ask me what I been doin' lately//
Cuz I decay that's exactly what I been doin' lately//

A bar away from a country song//
I lost my car, my job, and I lost my dog :*( //
I've seen things too fucked_up to unsee //
The most fucked up thing is what I'm be_coming //

I'm a professional pain in my own ass//
I'm a thorn in my own side I'm a code that I can't crack //
A prescription I can't fill I'm an itch that I can't scratch //
A decision to sit still I'm a wish that I take back//

And I wish I could quit wishing that my will to survive//
Stacked up half as high as the bills stacking up on my mind//
...and that pile of bills it'll be the death of me//
And the only reason my family gon' remember me//

You might be thinking that this is the rock bottom//
But I'm in the rock pit, my top rock is yo rock bottom//
My rock bottoms got rock bottoms with rocks on 'em//
And my top rock is the rock bottom that y'all fall on//

It's all gone and it washed away//
It all dissolves and fades as I decay,//
(And I say) IDK when they ask me what I been doin' lately//
Cuz I decay that's exactly what I been doin' lately//

It's all gone and it washed away//
It all dissolves and fades as I decay,//
(And I say) IDK when they ask me what I been doin' lately//
Cuz I decay that's exactly what I been doin' lately//

I been thinking, I think I can //
I think I can, I think I (think again) //
I think I can, I think I_(thought I should) //
I think I can't I can't think (thought I could) //

I lost it all and watched it wash away //
It all dissolves and fades as I decay, //
(And I say) IDK when you ask me what I been doin' lately //
Cuz I decay that's exactly what I been doin' lately //