I wrote this because you don't care how I feel.

So, a little about me; I'm a feelsy guy. I am often overtaken by the strength of my emotions in my art.

One night, I wrote a rap just for practice. Didnt plan to keep it at all. But a girl I had been talking to at the time all but begged me to do it anyways. So I did.

This song is raw. I tried to downplay it by using the skit interludes, making it seem almost as though I'm implying its all an act. But it's not.

More accurately, and you would only know this if I told you, the skits sarcastically portray me as an actor in life. Showing pure emotion, but the world still telling me Im not giving them enough. The first verse literally describes me tearing page after page out of my lyrics book after writing verses that I think nobody will enjoy. The second verse literally starts by describing me throwing my notepad of lyrics into the air out of frustration.

I'm... Different. But I hope you can accept me anyways.

[Lyrics]

*Spoken*
It's gonna be a long night...
not longer than they've been, though

*Rap*
Twenty-four years
in a different kinda place
I'm a different kinda person
with a different kinda grace

embrace

the way it feels in my mind
as I'm for-ev-er encased
in a better kinda time
write a better kinda line
and you see me kinda shine
through the rythms and the rhymes
write a letter to my mind
beg my psyche to be fine
tearin' pages from the bind
push my feelings to the side
as I take it all in stride
I am takin' cyanide

cause it kills me
just to act like I am sane
though the chemicals, they thrill me
as they're coursing through my brain

in pain

from the people actin' like they are my friends
when they love to cut me bleedin'
I'm concedin', it's the end

[skit interlude]

I'm runnin' outta paper
as I cast it to the wind
when I say I'll write it later
it's a different kinda sin

Pour a different kinda gin
for a different kinda grin
as I fade into the din
of a battle I can't win

cut my ankle to the shin
give me indomethacin
put a bandaid on a bullethole
and laugh at my chagrin

now I take it on the chin
as my identical twin
makes me bleed because I'm different
watch me die from deep within