Jacques Melissa - Tarnished imagination

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Long ass story of the song 'ere. Yaaaawn.

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"Be so kind and work,
you damned brain.
Thinking about something divine
and you're giving me plain grain again.

Feelin' the comfort of my pillow,
Thinkin' about the red dress and socialisation,
but red fades to gray and dresses evaporate
because of 'tis tarnished imagination.

~Me, Jacques, You, Jaclyn.

meaning of the name and the poet: sometimes I "struggle" with moderate aphantasia. It is a condition where one can not construct visual images in his brain or finds it difficult. Simply put, I can't imagine things properly.

I found it out when my friend told me he was dreaming about someone special every night, and I had an assumption that he indeed had very clear images in his mind. I googled what I have, and I was absolutely flabbergasted to find out that people can think very vividly. I found this odd because I simply couldn't do the same. Thinking about faces for a long periods of time just makes the deform 'till everything blurs out. I can not even stop a spinning cube in my mind. I find it incredibly hard.

For you, it should be easy to imagine a sunset in a beach. Try it out! Dream that you would be in a beach, drinking margaritas and looking at the cloud-filled sky. Is the picture clear for you? Probably. For me, I can do it, but the picture itself is very small, I can not control it and the colours are faded away.

Imagine if you had this. You were thinking about a pretty girl every night. You would be feeling the comfort of your bed and reaching the kiss in your dreams, but suddenly everything just started to crumble. Colours faded away, everything became tarnished and she no longer was there. You no longer remember what she looked like. Then you would be waiting over the weekend just to see what she looks like.

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Amazing song. Really love the parts where theres like these random unique kinda human sounds,also the uhh whats it called..Well that electronic sound XD sounds niceSeems like i have the condition too,i keep tellin people its difficult for me to things and they just keep saying oh shut up you just dont want to and im like bish...Fahk off y u no listen

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Now that you mention it, I think I have aphantasia aswell…

Awesome song though! It's very fitting for the condition. Like a machine that doesn't quite work properly.

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4.73 / 5.00

Aug 31, 2017
4:19 PM EDT
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3 min 26 sec

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