Note: Lyrics contain themes of self-harm. You have been warned.

My first ever song with lyrics.

I know the lyrics might sound off or weird but I tried my best. The vocals took me a very long time to finish and I'm happy that I managed to finish it despite the problems I faced.

For the song itself, it's about a nihilistic high school student's inner conflict which was inspired by a friend of mine's own struggle against nihilism. She has fortunately recovered from it and is doing better than before. I know the lyrics is off-putting and is also structured weirdly but I tried my best to eliminate that as much as I could with my extremely limited knowledge of vocal synthesis. Hopefully, I hope it doesn't ruin your musical experience.

And as always, I hope you enjoy.

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Lyrics:

Verse 1:
今も曇りの朝
虚ろな目に沈みこむ
退屈な日常
嘘の笑顔で殺す闇なの
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Pre-Chorus 1:
頭の中じゃ戦争ばっかり
岩の仮面かぶってるだけどうせ
誰もわかってくれない
生きてる価値なんて自分次第
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Chorus 1:
無意味な日々ただ過ぎていく
偽りだらけのこの社会
僕の声なんて誰も聞かない
So please tell me... Why?
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Verse 2:
教室の隅一人でいる
誰とも話さない方が楽で
この虚しさだけが僕の真実
期待も信じることも全部無駄だ
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Pre-Chorus 2:
ただ流されて消えていくだけの僕
夢見てた日々は遠い幻
大人になるなんてくだらない
この苦しさも自分の一部
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Chorus 2:
無力な心ただ壊れてく
黒い影ばかりが近づいて
僕の声なんて届かない
So please tell me...
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Finale:
変わらない虚しい日々
消えてしまいたいこの痛み
この無駄な日々の中で生きて
なんで生きるの?
「殺すね」、「殺すね」、「殺すね」、「殺すね」、
「殺すね」、「殺すね」、「殺すね」、「殺すね」
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Outro:
砕けた夢の欠片