This song is deeply personal but at the same time... I did atually write it for a fanfiction I read at the time :3c

LYRICS:

Could I just stare upon your face one last time?

No I wouldn't dare, but it's okay it's just fine.

I see you everywhere, there's no way you would be mine.

Though I will be yours.

I will be yours.

Everytime I know you're near, my throat begins to feel stuffed.

Whenever I think about how you grazed me with a single touch.

You seem so gentle, but try to act so tough.

And when I hear you voice, you know it's just to much.

The sentences you're speaking, linger in my head.

As they're stumbling and dancing, across my beating chest.

I know that you would never in your life see me that way.

I'm unfortunate enough to have my senses in disarray.

I wish I had the words to say hello.

But there are a thousand ways to tell you that I want to know.

I wanna know this person you're keeping inside.

And is that someone who's done something you have to hide?

Embarrassing as it is I have to say.

That I notice every single time you look my way.

All the noise you make in this quiet room.

every breath I hear echoes loudly too,

Still,

This day, I wonder if you could smell my light perfume.

As I walked by.

As I walked by you.

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This was more inspired by the way I felt about the first love I've ever felt towards anyone.

He was shy and very quiet, which was just the kind of guy I ALWAYS fell for as a teenager. Though he was smart and very funny, so I wrote a love letter to him on valentines day when I was 14 (my first love letter I sent to a boy) (It was his first confession too). Although he and his friends mocked my letter ALOT and hung it up on the school notice board, I still never regretted writing the letter. His best friend started whisteling and cat-calling at me, but I was too shy to ever even look his way. It was just such a sweet and wonderful love that I will never experience again. Cause what made it so nice was that it was really one sided as far as I could tell.

Though there are several signs that point to my love not being one sided. For example: I wrote to him in the letter that he looked really good in blue and when we turned 15 he was only wearing blue.

He asked my friend 1 year later after I wrote the love letter if it really was me who wrote it, and she told him it was (I didn't sign the letter with my name which was a wise desicion).

My friend told me that he asked and she also said that she told the truth and I was fine with it.

I thought it was fun that he knew that I admired him, I wasn't really shy about my feelings. Though I liked him so much I couldn't focus when he was around and I couldn't talk to him or look at him without my throat feeling stuffy. And his voice alone made me feel butterflies in my stomach.

I will never experience these emotions again I think (except with my current boyfriend) but not with the same inexperienced eyes ever again. I'm not as shy as I used to be, I am actually rather bold in my approach. When I wanted to confess to my boyfriend (when we were just friends that is) I just told him to meet me outside the library while class was still going on because I couldn't focus, and I just told him how I felt about him and that I had probably been in love with him for a really long time, and regardless of his response I would break up with my ex. And it worked godammit!

Though now I'm an adult and I have more experience with love, and it is so easy to see when someone is interested in someone else. It's rather funny how obvious some people are, while still trying to hide their feelings. I think it's cute.

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I really went off on a tangent over this song... So I hope you like it!!