Hello!

This song is called *Apparition*. I wrote it on January 17 2023 and recorded it on January 19 2023.

Yet again, I find myself struggling to properly incorporate the screamo aspect of music into my singing. Oh well, hopefully it can be somehow worked out with the band. Might have to be done away with altogether, unfortunately.

As to the second verse -- yes, it was based on an actual dream, interestingly enough. Although the song only focuses on the important parts (which make actual sense).

Lyrics:

Your smile

If I could defend it all my life

You know I would

Your laugh

I've never heard one so adorable as that

It's just a part of you

But I couldn't be as good a friend

As those close to you have been

I couldn't be as good to you

As them

I played the King of Spades

As I dug my grave

(Away from you)

You are the Queen of Hearts

Discarded by my hand

I had a dream

You were nothing but a ghost to me

I ran to you, then you were gone

And then everything became real

You were alive

I guess we had just a little more time

A second chance, but knowing me now

I'd have wasted it as well

Regret what I've done

Fear takes control

Would an apology ever be so sincere

As I was

When I threw it all away?

I threw you away

I played the King of Spades

As I dug my grave

(Away from you)

You are the Queen of Hearts

Discarded by my own hand

Someday there could be someone [else]

To first hold your hand

I'll never know -- all I do is

You'll be gone in the blink of an eye

I'll try to look back

All I find is wasted time

'Cause I thought

I couldn't be as good a friend

As those close to you have been

[I'd sooner let you be the one

Discarded by my own hand]