TRIGGER WARNING: SM used as a metaphor for abusive relationship

Finally ripping the band-aid off by showing this drawing to the public.

I finished this drawing on my birthday, 2022.

For those who aren't aware, I was in a abusive relationship with someone who I met in MM8BDM.

You know what happened, it starts cutesy, but slowly but surely the fights and discussions started. Some even lasting up to 3-4AM.

In his worst moments, he used me as a emotional punching bag. Even as something trivial as losing in a game like MM8BDM or CoD. That's enough for him to get angry and make a massive discussion. Or he being in a bad mood for hours or even 1 or 2 days.

It didn't help the fact that I became her GF when I was underage. Both having a 3-year gap. He having more romantic experience and failures than me.

I was afraid of leaving him alone, due to not wanting to hurt his feelings, the fear of being slandered, or of him doing something drastic (He ALMOST tried to end it up, but me and my friends related to him managed to stopped him)

I even tried to leave him in 2020, but I chickened myself out after seeing his messages clearly showing sadness. (My broken empathy... Damn you)

But I managed to block him from everywhere in 2023.

I'm still healing from it, and I have some things that I need to solve internally.

The best song to represent the relationship is "Destruction of Us" (Really good song, but I don't support the artist, even if I was a fan of his work)

I will NOT forgive you, J.

Hope you guys understand that and forgive me.

_Elec

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