mm yes wwjd?
Placate yourself in prayer -- that sounds quite proactive ...
d : The general consensus is that dreams are spawned by the unconscious -
& that the unconscious is pretty much as active as the conscious
(especially throughout the day) -- differently attentive / perceptive / operative etc.
Your account seems simple enough. How ordered do things seem to you?
What are your reactions & responses to the world you witness about?
It seems you sense 'progression' as the liberation activity that saves you from being overwhelmed by some subtly perceived or conceived order.
Especially progression through your own power and will.
Yet, you crave rest or some refugee.
Mostly some way to relax & realize that things may be OK
w/o you having to try too hard.
Take it easy. Enjoy yourself w/ good company or some hobby some more.
A little more spontaneity might help you along the way.
Wander a bit. Check out the 'Situationists'
(an odd art movement, kinda nifty).
'course you may simply prefer track to volleyball -- it all depends
disclaiming : i wasn't offering advice -- just dropping opinion,
Peace,
d