A personal experience...
Excellent as always Maestro. I was fairly impressed by the amount of guitar you put in the piece. Guitar, not to be rude, is a instrument I rarely hear or see in most of your pieces. You weren't kidding one bit in your description when you said you came back experimenting. Anyways, the story I'm about to share is one is real. It is a personal experience from me that is reflected in this piece like a finely polished mirror. Back when I was a lad of eight I met a cousin of mine named Diana. She was bound and striken to a automated wheelchair and could not lift her arms, legs, and could barely lift her head. And yet...she was always smiling. I was both mystified and also curious at her smiling. I asked her and she simply replied, "I'm still alive, aren't I?" I liked her immediatly. I helped feed her at a family get together at my grandparents and according to my parents Diana was sick with a grevious disease in her spinal cord, which caused her disablity throughout her entire body. The day after that my parents informed my sister and I that Diana was in the hospital. Her sickness had gotten worse. My family quickly went to the hospital where she was being kept. I went there and she was sad. She didn't like hospitals she said once. She wanted to go home and be in her own bed. But, in the end...she still smiled. I was happy and yet also sad at the very same moment. The kindest, most caring soul in the world was dying right before my eyes, and there was nothing I could do to save her. All I could do...was hold her hand...and try to ease the pain. The very next day she was put in extensive care and she was so sick that we couldn't even go to the room where she was being kept. You can assume what happened the day after that. I was grieved by this and angry at the same time. Why had God let such a caring person die? My father, God bless him, was quick to ask me if Heaven was perfect or not and I of course said yes. He also asked me if in Heaven you could find true hapiness. I said yes again and asked him why he was asking such obvious questions. My father smiled and asked, "Well, what do you think your cousin Diana is doing right now in Heaven?" I pondered it for a moment and the realization dawned upon me like a weight. Diana was finally taking her first step. The first step that all take when they come of age. Her sickness had robbed her of that ever since she was a baby. She was finally being able to do all the things she wished she could have done here on Earth. After her death I thought I would never be able to smile again, to able to experience joy. But when I thought about what she would be doing in Heaven...I was able to smile again. I was actually happy she was in Heaven. To be here, unable to move, unable to do anything without one's help. "To be living a constant trap...not a pleasent thought." was what you said. With story, I hope you realize how true your words ring. Keep up the good work...