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Jan 31, 2012 | 6:46 AM EST

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Running time - 5 minutes

Majority of the animation was made December 2011 & January 2012
Made in approximately 100 hours

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I don't know how many days I have left.
What makes me think I'll even live another hour?
Why even bother living this life only to lose it all.
Chasing after the f****** wind.

I could live to all the good moral standards of my culture
but I'd die just the same as the people with the worst moral standards.
I think I'd be happier being an immoral person, though I know it's a lie.

My heart reeks corruption.
Following my desires I'd never want to work,
never help people,
unless I get something out of it of corse
and just be a blood sucking leech on everyone around me but worse.
Destroying the very things that sustain me.


I don't want to hurt people
but if I don't, I'll hurt myself.
Either way I'm going to cause destruction and death.
So wouldn't it be better for only one person to die than many.

Sure, they'll be sad, but they will find a way to live without me, right?
What am I thinking! they are no different than me!
Then we should all, just, die.



You speek rightly. You do deserve death
You have thought nothing but the evils of your wicked heart since the day of your creation.
You could never be pleasing to God.

But do you think God didn't know that?
You think God made you just to bring you pain?

Know this, you will always have problems in this life
but hear me correctly when I say this statement.

your corruption is your fault.
your corruption is your fault.
Not because you could chose not to be corrupt,
but because you have not given up on yourself.

You run like a mouse on a wheel trying to get away,
no trying to walk on water,
no trying to fly with your arms.
You try and try and try, to do something you can never do.
but you were never meant to.
you need only to seek the one who gives freely.

I know your impatient,
you could be watching tv or doing something to amuse your mind.

But when you realise the truth, that you have nothing,

Look to God, not yourself.
Because He is our only real foundation in this life.
You will go to hell in your own strength.

Please, realise God's love for you,
despite all your corruption
and may His love, change you



Rated 1 / 5 stars


Packed with clichés, unoriginal, confusing. There is only one thing worse than shallowness, which is shallowness trying to be deep. This is an example of it. This didn't make a difference whatsoever.

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nahtanojmal responds:

Yep, Images and audio can only do so much.

Not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen.


Rated 4 / 5 stars


This was good, i enjoyed your outlooks on life since they resemble my own, people disgust me and the world is spiraling downwards.
Unfortunately, like most of the people that are making some really horrible comments, i don't believe in religion for the same reasons napalm6b mentioned, but unlike him i'm not angry, the animation was good and if religion is how you deal with this messed up world then so be it.
Keep up the good work.

nahtanojmal responds:

Hey Thanks, I appreciate it ;)


Rated 0 / 5 stars

wow that was awful

First off, the message of this flash was so blunt and brutal, that it nullified any artistic value I might find in the visuals. Why do religious people have to hold such intense and distorted views of daily life without god. Just because I don't believe doesn't mean that I have no sense of social responsibility or moral standards. I'm a strong enough person to define my own belief system based off of many good and bad experiences in the real world. How can you try to define your life based off of a book written over 2000 years ago and then edited/translated by the, greeks, romans, king James and who knows who else... The bible is full of acts of hate, perversion and violence and thank the zombie jesus the city I live in has little connection to the ugly depiction of humanity that book paints. All the darkness I see is in that awful book and all the talk of unfair judgement, blood and torture in any church I've been to. The best advise I can give, is for to get out of your own head, out of your house to go and see how interesting, exciting, challenging and beautiful the world can be when looked at impartially.

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nahtanojmal responds:

:) Thank you for your honest review


Rated 0 / 5 stars


You just gotta love the dim and dismal view this asshat has for people who don't follow, not just any religion, but his religion specifically. You gotta love how Jonathan Lam thinks that human beings simply cannot function worth a shit and instinctively drive themselves to suicide without the divine presence of a fictional father figure.

Christianity is for the emotionally retarded, only a person who is deeply insecure or desperate would resort to the masochistic measure of praying to a zombie on a stick. These are bold words coming from an agnostic such as myself, but they are true; to follow a dogma that deems it's values not as opinion but as fact is the most pathetic state of mind a person can succumb to, not because they've found a philosophical structure rather than creating one but because that philosophical structure is viewed as something to be preached and imposed. Enlightenment is it's own reward and not something to impose on others. You don't follow a belief structure for a reward, you follow it because that belief structure pertains to your principles, you follow it because it defines you, not because you fear the alternative.

But true enlightenment defy's the point of Christianity now doesn't it? Christianity is all about suffering the fear of a consequence and condescending to deviant opinions by calling them corrupt, by outright telling others that if they don't own up to your standards that they are sociological failures, scum to be wiped clean. That is true egotism if I've ever seen it, you have a lot of self entitlement to tell me that I'm going to hell because I've deviated from your standard of conduct and that the only path to happiness is to be lead to an eventless life followed by a pointless demise.

There is no greater form of self loathing beyond that of Christianity, a belief that's structured upon the hypothesis that humanity is intrinsically a mistake, something that shouldn't be and should be hated and eventually destroyed. There is no greater irrationality than that.

The animation blows, just a series of 2 to 5 frame loops, motion tweening and lots and lots of special effect filters to sugar coat the whole thing.

All 'n all, I'd have to say that the messages conveyed here are about as deep and intelligent as those shitty Christian poems on Youtube that the Amazing Atheist critiques; shallow and emo; a pretense of real emotion, a false representation, an exaggeration, being completely devoid of anything of real content and substance. The moment you go as far as to use suicide as the main driving force behind conveying your message, you've lost all foundation of being relatable or sympathetic in conveying that message because you took a serious issue and disregarded it in favor of something petty; preaching God.

No, Jehovah is not right, you're not right, there is no God, Jonathan Lam, accept it. You will not impose your corrupt, bigoted religion or it's dogma on me. You are truly contemptible and I'm sure the "completely worthless" rating this review will receive shall surely prove the contempt that composes Christianity.

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nahtanojmal responds:

Hey Thanks for actually making the effort to know my name. Yes my name is not Nathan!

Some drive themselves to suicide, others rely on what man can do and others go to God.

Christianity is all about Christ (hence the name) Christ came to seek and save the lost (from the inevitable wrath of God).

" follow it because that belief structure pertains to your principles"
So you should only believe something that you already believe in... hmmm you sound humble and teachable.

Uhh humanity is no mistake, humans make mistakes but are no mistake. People don't get destroyed in Hell they suffer for their choice to oppose God.

Yep your right about the animation

You can lead a horse to water but can't make him drink

Thanks for your honest review ;)


Rated 5 / 5 stars


What's with all this negative criticism? I'm not a "god person" either, but I found this beautiful, poetic, emotional, and deeply profound. While I don't agree with the message, this still contains fascinating and poignant insight into the human psyche. Besides that, take a look at the art! It's so rich with analogies! The perspetive choices, the color choices, the subtle camera movements, the perfectly placed shadows, everything screams heart and emotion!
I don't agree with the message; however, I can respect and enjoy this artistic piece.

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nahtanojmal responds:

Thank you ;)
I give you 5/5 :D