I'm sorry for my outburst fellow NG'ders, there are no easy shortcuts in art my friends. Even though I know no one may visit this thread, I still have the mentality of pushing forth an apology to myself and others, so that if i ever do attract those to my art, I may look back and see my endeavors.
We all have to pay our dues for our skill, as frustrating as it is to not produce what we imagine, it'll come one day to us all who persue the talent that escapes so many of our fingers.