Well, honestly I went to college for three years like I stated before.

My first two years, straight out of high school, were a t a branch campus 15 minutes from my home. So I lived at home. I got decent grades, about a 3.0 GPA the first year, then like a 2.8 the second year. When I declared a major (which I wasnt sure which one to pick, because like I said I can write but cant do math) I went to Penn States Main Campus in University park. I was going to class regularly, but I was so unhappy with my classes, and what I was learning in them that I lost interest. I started smoking weed, and playing XBOX all the time. I ALSO was working while I was at school. I had to take the bus dam near every day to the Wegmans in state college to work in the sub shop. On the plus side, i was making 10.50/hr (i transferred from the warehouse, which is close to where i live and my pay rate came with me)

so after i dropped out because of lack of interest and pretty much unexplainable depression, i lost my job, my car, my mom kicked me out because i was dating a black girl (and i called my mom a bigot fucktard), my dad kicked me out because we have NEVER gotten along. now like i said im living with my nan and i help her out whenever i can.

i am good at writing. i am actually published. i think that if i knuckle down and try to write a novel i can actually do it and probably get it published.

Well then get a job and get writing. Work your ass off and really knuckle down. The only person responsible for your successes and failures in life is you. You know you can be successful if you work your ass off, you just don't trust yourself to do it. Make that decision every day. Quit having these epiphany days ever 3 weeks and work hard ALL THE TIME.

i have no drive, no motivation to do anything. should i see a therapist? i mean i literally have no ambition. i dont acre waht happens at all, really. someone could walk into the house right now and tell me theyre gonna kill me. it would matter, really. i wouldnt even bat an eyelash

At 1/4/10 07:13 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: i have no drive, no motivation to do anything. should i see a therapist? i mean i literally have no ambition. i dont acre waht happens at all, really. someone could walk into the house right now and tell me theyre gonna kill me. it would matter, really. i wouldnt even bat an eyelash

If you literally do not care at all you won't make it to a therapist. You'll just sit in that chair and starve to death.

Im not that bad to the point where I am not eating. I had breakfast and some coffee. Ive been up all night. I probably wont sleep until about noon.

At 1/4/10 07:21 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: Im not that bad to the point where I am not eating. I had breakfast and some coffee. Ive been up all night. I probably wont sleep until about noon.

Great. Since you don't have the work ethic to force the grit, call your mother and talk to her about therapy. You're wasting time every day you dick around and mope about it.

I DO have a job though. Work ethic is something i am lacking. its going tom be hard to get any sort of therapy because i like many americans, have no insurance. they offer it to me where i work, but making minimum wage and working less than 20 hours a week, its not worth paying for it.

At 1/4/10 07:29 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: I DO have a job though. Work ethic is something i am lacking. its going tom be hard to get any sort of therapy because i like many americans, have no insurance. they offer it to me where i work, but making minimum wage and working less than 20 hours a week, its not worth paying for it.

FULL TIME JOB. And do what it takes to get promoted.

i applied at the wal mart distribution center two days ago. i hope they call me soon.

thanks for the help BC.

At 1/2/10 10:19 PM, The4thSurvivor wrote: when i say that i COULDNT pass college, i really couldnt. i lacked the mental capacity to PASS math classes. i took the three classes that you needed to pass with a C average to pass the basic math requirement. i failed all three.

Fucking A Level maths is hard as shit!

Why the fuck did you take that?

Yah, im in the same hole as you for that, let me guess you thought "Well I'm good at maths in previous school/education level so I guess i'll do that in college?" yeah its the fucking hardest A Level, seriously, dont let that get you depressed, im doing A Levels in Electronics and Geology and IT, they are NO WHERE near as hard as A Level Maths.

So go to college and kick the shit out of a different A Level.

The English language fucks many people. Dont feel bad.

Look at Schwarzenegger for example.

Crazy Hungarian bastard.

TiredPaperBoy, there are three classes that PSU offers, that satisy the BASIC math requirement for ALL majors. obviously, depending on what your major is, more math may be required. seeing as i was going to be a writer, not much math was needed. there are three courses offered that satisfy the minimum requirement. i took all three, and failed all 3, consecutively.

At 1/4/10 08:08 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: TiredPaperBoy, there are three classes that PSU offers, that satisy the BASIC math requirement for ALL majors. obviously, depending on what your major is, more math may be required. seeing as i was going to be a writer, not much math was needed. there are three courses offered that satisfy the minimum requirement. i took all three, and failed all 3, consecutively.

Bloody American education system is too confusing, why didnt you just keep our one!

...PSU too me means Power Supply Unit...

Here in UK where compulsry education ends (End of High School) we go on to college where we do A Levels or GCE's which can get us jobs or get us into University which is the last stage of education.

Where would you be if you were in the UK Education system?

Shave your beard, cut your hair, straighten that tie, wear crest white strips, walk around with a smile, and drive a fancy car.

Just figure out how to do it lololol

At 1/4/10 08:14 AM, TiredPaperBoy wrote: Where would you be if you were in the UK Education system?

Where do you think we'd be? Not being an ass, I'm actually kind of curious.

apparenty, the majority of schools in america are dumb as fuck.

my school was unfortunately one of them.

and it fucked me bad in the long run.

one answer is to be less of a douche.
really, just be nice to people and it will eventually pay off...
oh, and get off this site, get out there and socialise- you will be less alone.

At 1/4/10 10:03 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: apparenty, the majority of schools in america are dumb as fuck.

my school was unfortunately one of them.

and it fucked me bad in the long run.

BAWWWWWWW I FAILED OUT OF COLLEGE AND I BLAME IT ON MY SCHOOL NOT MY OWN PERSONAL ABILITY BAWWWWWWWW

stfu. take responsibility for your actions stop crying and do something about it. fucking woman.

I bet you find some sort of strange satisfaction that this thread is 4 pages. I, on the other hand, am filled with disgust.

Maybe you should play WoW. Your life seems pretty fucked up already.

Wes, I do feel good that this thread is 5 pages long, not 4 your fucktard. learn your numbers.

secondly I dont give a flying FUCK what you think. YOU need to shut the fuck up and keep your douchebaggeries to yourself you piece of shit,

im not ever going to play WoW, because its retarded.

At 1/2/10 09:28 PM, jermaineheezy wrote: man up you pussy i met a girl whose been raped, stabbed, and abused by her parents n still keeps a smile on her face, and she just lost her job, fucking pussy grow a pair you dick fuck you

That's a great way to stop someone from killing themselves you prick. Everyone knows that even if their life is bad someone has it worse but, that doesn't make their life not hard. Maybe try to be understanding instead of making the OP feeling like shit even more.

At 1/4/10 10:20 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: Wes, I do feel good that this thread is 5 pages long, not 4 your fucktard. learn your numbers.

ohno, i just got intellectually checkmated. You sure got me there.

secondly I dont give a flying FUCK what you think. YOU need to shut the fuck up and keep your douchebaggeries to yourself you piece of shit,

cry moaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrr. bawwwwww i'm alone bawwwww i have no friends bawww

im not ever going to play WoW, because its retarded.

You're retarded.

Grab your balls and man up, pussy

Hey Wes you're a cocky little cunt aren't you? Eat a dick faggot.

AND he's and 18 year old pussy from Jersey! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

At 1/4/10 10:28 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: Hey Wes you're a cocky little cunt aren't you? Eat a dick faggot.

Nah, I'm just down to earth unlike your pansy ass. I don't bitch on an internet forum how bad my life is like I'm a 12 year old girl who just discovered facebook.

I fail to see the resemblance to my problems and a 12 year old girl who just discovered facebook.

Are you just stringing random words together to form words?

Aww, how cute.

At 1/4/10 10:34 AM, The4thSurvivor wrote: I fail to see the resemblance to my problems and a 12 year old girl who just discovered facebook.

Are you just stringing random words together to form words?

Aww, how cute.

You're so stupid you can't see the resemblance of a 12 year old girl posting her problems on facebook to you posting your equally as trivial problems on newgrounds.

I'm done with you, kill yourself. norly, do it. video tape it, say i cyber bullied you into it do whatever.

it would be worth it.

L. O. L.

Yeah, like I'm being "cyber-bullied" by some faggot Guido with gelled hair and huge sunglasses from Jersey.

ROFL.
FUCKING.
MAO.

You fail Guinney. Sorry!

+1 POST

Cuz I'm totally guido.

now i'm really done.

Its hard to try to get more hours there. its a vgfideo game store like gamestop. i can only work when theres people coming in to sell stuff to, and with the economy as bad as it is, its tough.

for example, last year on black friday, they made over 35 grand IN ONE DAY.

this years black friday? a little over 8 k