You needed to express some emotions, and sometimes we need to feel emotions. Music is the great facilitator for that especially when one feels callous. Just laying in bed now listening to this on loop wondering what you've been up to. There are times that your piano pieces tend to be a bit of mystery exactly of what the notes are telling me. Or maybe its me in another wavelength that I have to tune my ears for to decipher meaning. It could be the fact that at moments the piano sounds triumphant only to suddenly change to a more somber moment like in 1:12-1:20. Even in the contrast between heavy bass notes at 1:38 dissipating to the eventual lightheartedness at 2:00. I think what's happening is it's like the stream of consciousness in the brain made visible/audible through the piano. Your fingers are like a musical polygraph. Isn't it obvious that this is about a flurry of mixed emotions (perhaps even about love) and not knowing how to sort it all in the mind and heart? Why else would one turn to the music anyway, but the notes reflect that as well.