I dont know how...
Like the others, I felt that sense of lost too. My eyes teared up and I got lonely inside. I got a butterfly feeling and I wanted to just turn up the volume to internally suffer until I found what ever this song seemed to need to unlock in my mind, body ,and soul. How do you do it man, what is it that can get you to write a piece of music so amazing you got half of your reviewers crying? To find a sense of dread and calamity in us all? You have talent and its beyond amazing. Newgrounds may be you music's current home, but I can guarantee this will be found by someone who could use your skill in the music or movie world. Then, what ever good things that happen to you then, was a wish I'm sure all of us reviewers would like to see.
-fatrat