This is an older track of mine. This is the backstory.

It was November. I remember being in one of the lowest points of my life, similar to nowadays. Issues with maintaining ties, troubles with school, many challenges with personal goals and a horrible view of myself and my life. On top of that, a friend of mine had tried to take their life away.

Being absolutely crushed by the overwhelming weight of the world on my shoulders, I’ve considered also taking my own life away. I wasn’t seeing colors or feeling anything anymore, and I was so down that I couldn’t possibly get any lower.

I kept sitting by myself and wonder what could I do to at least try and clear my mind off of things? I didn’t have anyone to talk to, so my only option was my music, that I use as a diary. I kept making more and more music to reflect how I felt, and eventually used it as my permanent diary from now on.

This song was meant to be in an album called “So Cold, So Alone” I unfortunately never got to finish it, but I’m still working on it, trying to add different perspectives of my life onto it. This song, however, remains the most sentimental one I made.

Didn’t want to trauma dump or anything, but I figured this will show you a different perspective on the song and what it means.

Stay safe everyone. If you ever need to talk, I’m all ears.

Enjoy,

-Thxrns

My Spotify and YouTube are @thxrnsbeats

My NewGrounds and Discord are @auroraeternum