You know I lie to myself to keep awake at night

'Cause sleep is for pussies

Or maybe I'm just too scared to dream about you again

Fuck, if I know

I can't stand how much it's hurting me

But fuck if I'll let anything change

Cook myself dinner then let it rot on the counter

The bugs need it more than me

If I could feed a million then why should I feed one?

I know I let you down last night

It's something in the weather

I'm scared of you, thats why

I'm not a great pretender

When I felt the ship capsize

I held onto your letters

Then swallowed up my pride

And sunk under the pressure

Well, I think I'm getting over you

I swear to god if you text me one more time I'm gonna throw up

Might convince myself I've got something to lose

But that's a lie I guess, ugh

I know I let you down last night

It's something in the weather

I'm scared of you, that's why

I'm not a great pretender

When I felt this shit capsize

I held onto your letters

Then I swallowed up my pride

And sunk under the pressure

Thought as straight as I ride

You carved straight to my center

And it seems that we lost time

And I fucking lost it again!

You know you're always in my head