been waiting for myself for my whole life

thought one day i'd be myself it's all alright

but when i'm blindly hoping for something

i tear my body, reduced to nothing

now, i hear you softly thinking but im just not grasping

how, i'm stuck inside my muscle mech, my flesh tone painted

hell, they get to know my body, they don't get to know my

self, mmm mmmm

cause i'm lost, i'm pawing at the smoke, i don't feel leaves, i just feel

moss, i'm dying with my pride, i don't know how i got so

soft, and you see me, stuck in the hotseat

i'm pushing the buttons, don't know what the lights mean