this is a song i started writing back in may about my first girlfriend. this was prompted by the beginnings of the first hiccup in our relationship, and i assure you, there were many more to come. it's all said and done now, but i still hold those feelings close to me. it's a work in progress still.

also fyi my cat walked into my room mid take. i did not call her my kitten. i'm a degenerate, not a discord mod.

lyrics (including some excluded from this take)

[verse]

oh youre not good for me

well define not good

you know that doesnt matter to me

though you think it should

[chorus]

but i still love you

im sorry i love you

i hope we're not through

i don't know what i'd do

if i was without you

when im around you

you make me feel all warm inside

i used to feel so cold i thought i would die, alone

you make me feel alive

or something

[verse]

i dont care if you hurt me

as long i get an apology

so i dont feel as lonely

as i used to be

and you can push me away

as far as you like

as long as i can cry about you

every night

after all we've been through

it wouldn't be the same without you

i can't replace you

if only you knew

you know how much you mean to me

if you only knew

[chorus] that i still love you

[outro]

i just wanna roleplay

feels like it's a snow day

pretending everything's okay

i just wanna roleplay

[ramblings] (random)

i just wanna roleplay

i just want a snow day

pretending everything's okay

i just want it my way

i just want it your way

i just want it anyway

i wouldn't have it any other way

i just want us to be okay

tell me are we okay

please just tell me are we okay

everything's not okay

but i'd do it anyway

id probably forget it anyway

can we go back to your place

i think we need to move slowly

could you please just show me

tell me how's it your way

tell me how you feel

you say it's okay to cry

you make me feel so alive

you make me feel so dead inside

i don't wanna feel this way

the same way that i felt yesterday