My secret santa music gift for @Teravex . Teravex asked for jazz, dnb, pop, funk, metal, synthwave, I chose Dnb originally, but I couldn't get the song to work so I had to scrap and rewrite it as a pop song.

As for the lyrics, yeah they're a bit of a mess- they're about my learning to be more grateful/considerate and beating my habit of giving up. Kind of like a pre-new year pep talk to myself.

I hope this finds you well, Teravex! Have a good one.

Vocals made using Synth V (Eleanor Forte voicebank), drum sample from Kawai Sprite, choir sample from here, song icon from here. Chopped piano sample is my own

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Lyrics

what have i learned?

how i've never known

to fully atone

for every thanks

i have yet to hone it as a habit

may i have a word

i think it's time

it's been on my mind

to do you well

so save yourself the wounds,

to tell the truth,

i gotta put in the work too

starting today

no more excuses

what have i learned?

how i've never known

to fully atone

for every thanks

here's to potential

just the same as you

disappointed too

so save yourself the wounds,

to tell the truth,

i gotta put in the work too

starting today

no more excuses

what have i learned?

how i've never known

to fully atone

for every thanks

i have yet to hone it as a habit

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fun fact: i had a fainting spell one day before uploading this- low blood pressure brought about by too much coffee and little sleep. i lost my sight and hearing temporarily and my dad had to lay my back on the ground with my feet above the family couch to bring bloodflow back to my head. i was about 85% done with the song when that happened lmao