i felt like doing something super chaotic lmao

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power over me

made me lose control

losing right or wrong

needle to my soul

didn’t think my actions

would of had their toll

on you so I hope

that you can feel whole

something stirred within

one day I realised

tricked myself to think

my actions justified

i had to realize

i warranted myself

stare into the mirror

and no one comes to help

drowning in this feeling

of self mistrust

i rage against you 

fueled by the self disgust

I’ll always hate how much

you made me hate myself

obsessing over you

was toxic for my health

Running from the truth

for miles and miles

shut my eyes to darkness

and overturned smiles

Running from the truth

for miles and miles

shut my eyes to darkness

 ov er turned smiles

I’m also the worst

gave into my thirst

Ended up immersed

lust simply burst 

I’m also the worst

gave into my thirst

Ended up immersed

lust simply burst 

now I truly see

this story is reversed

hurt me over over

you’re flawed I’m just cursed

don’t misunderstand

you’re no damn angel

used me the whole time

truly so disdainful

lost in your trance

ending was so painful

still unsure who’s actions

were more shameful

lost in your trance

ending was so painful

still unsure who’s actions

were more shameful

in that sense

I’m pleonetic like you

but I despise you 

and all the things you do

in that sense

I’m pleonetic like you

but I despise you

and all the things you do

this reflection

of my self hatred

a desire to be you

disregarding what’s sacred

you had power over me

excited but scared

i stupidly believed

deep down you cared

Running from the truth

for miles and miles

shut my eyes to darkness

and overturned smiles

Running from the truth

for miles and miles

shut my eyes to darkness

 ov er turned smiles

I’m also the worst

gave into my thirst

Ended up immersed

lust simply burst 

I’m also the worst

gave into my thirst

Ended up immersed

lust simply burst