[Released 8th October 2021]

I've been really struggling with, well, everything these past few years. Getting work done, trying to find a job, keeping up my friendships and responsibilities, and trying to enjoy the hobbies I have. It weighs down on me a lot, and my music is especially heavy, because the unique style I have makes it difficult for me to appreciate it more than everything else I listen to, despite the fact I still enjoy making it. There's nothing like it, and because of that, it hurts my motivation and confidence.

It's really easy to want to give up. I've been wanting to throw everything away so many times, because I never feel like I am good enough, that I have proven myself. And yet, its nearly impossible for me to give up. There's a feeling I have that just makes giving up feel like a brick wall, and I just like to think that its the hope that one day I will reach a place where I am happier and more satisfied with myself and what I make.

I hope you enjoy this song, I really do.

Listen on YouTube: youtu.be/kGf9HKOsLGs

Listen on Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/totallyporff/i-hope-1

Listen elsewhere: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/porff/i-hope

LYRICS:

I can't keep moving while my heart's got these wounds so deep,

stuck in my ways I daren't take the leap,

happiness is a thing I cannot keep,

And yet I've got this feeling inside me,

this energy that's helping me to breathe,

the hope that one day I will be set free,

and live a life where I feel so carefree.

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