I think I might go on a break soon. The pressure of things that I can't talk about are surmounting on me, and if I say a word about them things might explode. If I take one wrong step, everything could fall.

I'm finding myself stuck in hard places really often as of late. It only occurred to me tonight that all I have, all I can really say about myself, is that I create music. I feel empty inside, as if I don't have anything else. And I don't. I spent all my time looking for something, and I thought I found it. But it isn't gonna pay bills or help keep me alive. It's just something fun and what I enjoy.

And I think I'm becoming self-absorbant, especially looking at what so many people close to me are doing. I almost want to go on my own and become something different, dependent only on myself. I just don't know how to move or what to do.

This is the first time in a small while I completed something outside of FNF, but also the first time I completed something in a short timespan, probably around an hour or two. It felt a little refreshing, but I think sleeping tonight and waking up tomorrow will refresh me more.