Track 3 of 5 off my new EP "this was supposed to be happy", out now on bandcamp: https://nowitsart.bandcamp.com/album/this-was-supposed-to-be-happy

I made this (along with the other tracks) in December 2020, and am only able to finally put them out now. I wanted to get this out on 12/30/21 but you know nothing is ever going to go to plan with me.

Normally I would go into overly-extended detail about what all the songs mean and whatever, but I'm not ready to yet for these. Not enough time has passed still, somehow.

I will say though, that this is only part 1 of this project, so there is definitely more to come.

LYRICS

Every day I cannot wait

To see what sticks with me

I can't escape this fate

Unless I am set free

But I can't get that way

Unless my mind's erased

Once the dark clouds all part

I'll finally get to start

And every day I wait

I don't know what to see

I end up losing hope

And I lose a part of me

But when it finally sticks

I cannot wait to see

Is this what it feels like

To finally be free?

But sometimes it's just so hard

I don't know how to play my part

Suddenly the panic starts

And everything just breaks my heart

And I can't take it anymore

But you know that, I said before

I've tried so hard, got lots to say

So that's why it broke me, I screamed today