I guess this will be the first thing I upload to Newgrounds since it's the most recent thing I've made that I'm proud of.

I had made a soundcloud account before just to have an excuse to post my music somewhere since I'm not really that kind of person. Newgrounds only recently entered my mind in recent months and I've decided to dig up this super old account.

I'm not really the type to share what I make heck even typing this in I have my doubts since I feel that nothing I do is even good enough. Deep down I really want to get out of this mindset but I'm not even sure where to begin.

I used a bit of my money to change my username AND GODDAMNIT I don't want it to go to waste. That's what's currently on my mind as I type this in.

For the creation of the song it's a different story and it feels really weird now. Originally I had re-visited an old content creator that I used to watch all the time. Their content just happened to align with what I was into nowadays so I just started watching them again. A few years back they had made a drum and bass album that I loved which is weird since I'm usually into that kind of stuff. I had re-listened to my favorite tracks and I was inspired to try and make a song of my own in this style. As a musician this genre is alien to me since I was really into Bossa Nova and Jazz while I was studying. I made the track and I had some thoughts about it on the soundcloud description and I though that was the end of that.

A little bit after I had uploaded the track that same content creator that I had been inspired by turned out to be a "not good person". At the time I was a bit sad but thinking back on a few instances I picked up on it was inevitable. This track is just in that weird spot of "oh man I really like what I made" and "oh man the inspiration of this is tainted now" and I don't know how to feel about that.

The matter of the fact is that it's uploaded now so I guess I feel much more comfortable with it being what it is.

As a first post on Newgrounds this might be too long or whatever but that's fine. It's even surreal that I'm digging up this super old account that I made just to upload some of my music. I'll look back on this description in a few years and go "what the fuck was I thinking" but that's okay I guess.

I want my music to be what it is along with my thoughts about it. Things may change over time but I feel that it's important to write down something at the time. I want to put something out there that's distinctly mine and I'm still figuring that out.