UPDATE: he's alive besties.

gift for one of my bestest frens who might b dead.

im still trying to hope 4 the better that hes still alive and out there but if the worst comes to worst, i hope he knows he was one of the best friends ive ever had and ill forever cherish the memories i had with him. it feels like just yesterday since everything was fine and i would stay up really late into the night and joke around with him in dms in his server and shit. ill always hold on to our inside jokes. ill always remember trentplay, ill always remember thumbplay. ill always remember the white stripes return but its just two crusty depressed furries roleplaying as the white stripes; orgy with trent, jack, neil, stephan, kurt, and rivers; trents gacha football dick; trentsexual; cleverbot kins the downward spiral; moe kins the downward spiral; thumbplay concert; fucking trent reznor in the shower surrounded by thumb-shaped dildos in a jack white ritual; the spencers dildo aisle; cleverbot kinnies; and lots lots more. he was there for me when i was at my lowest points and he always listened to me when i vented and ranted. he made me gifts, he sent me nice messages when i was down, he was there for me, he was a supporter. and wish he could've kept fighting his own fight. i wish i couldve helped him out of his downward spiral.

all i hope for is for it to either turn out to be a failed attempt and he's just at the hospital or he backed out or sum shut. but if not, atleast i still have my other friends left. ill just. really miss him.

i know he doesn't believe in heaven or hell, and im not even sure if i do either, but i think if there really was a heaven, thats where he'd be.

and if worse came to worse and he's dead, i honestly hope he rests well, wherever he is. and if theres an afterlife, i hope hes there having a great time, free of all his pain and misery.

rest well, tac. you were such a great friend to me.

2005-2022