I am not doing fucking well at all. Pretty sure the US Government doesn’t give a rat’s ass about me since I’m not one of their precious lobbyists, hell I’m pretty sure no one that has the ability to help me out of this nightmare of a life cares enough to do just that. I recently had to open commissions because of how much me and my mother are both struggling financially and are just one emergency away from being homeless like so many other Americans, and my mental health has only gotten worse as time has gone on, and it’s been declining for at least over a decade. I’m also constantly being bombarded with news stories about people suffering just as much if not more than I have. And don’t even get me started on Gaza. All the shit and even feeling a tiny bit of the emotional pain surrounding it shut me down for a while. Caring fucking hurts me. It really does. Humans have never changed for the better and they never will.

I’ve been masking a lot of these thoughts and feelings for a while now because I have been afraid of alienating people and leaving myself with less people supporting me, therefore making it harder for me to survive, but now I need to break silence. Things are not okay, and as far as I can see, they never will be as long as I am alive. And no one who can change that cares enough to. I have so little to help myself with, let alone other people’s, and yet I’m expected as a member of Gen Z to clean up the messes other people made. To those people, I say clean your own damn mess. I did nothing to deserve all this and I’ll never be convinced otherwise. All you people do is make fun of me for having suicidal thoughts and being on the internet a lot even though none of that is my own fault in the first place.

For all older people who are against this madness people like me deal with constantly getting lumped with the people that have left this world to rot, please don’t take this personally. I just needed all this off my chest. But it’s never going to actually help me of course. Just show off more of my stupid vulnerability.

Also the blood is there to show how my psychological pain would be if it was more physical instead. Although it would probably be a bit more graphic if that was the case.