Because i love meat grinders and honestly, I’m a lil bit of a masochist. I have been trying to get rid of those feelings and thoughts, and drawing them out seems to help. I am sorry if this made you uncomfortable, but I just need to vent sometimes. I wanted to post this because I want people to know that if they are also going through this, they aren’t alone. I know I didn’t put this in the commentary like I should have, but that is the reason behind this post. Thank you for your comment, I really love responding! Have a nice day, and may the force be with you :)