i cannot go a day without thinking about it

what i've done

the effects it had on them

why did i ever fucking think of saying that to them

i can't even apologize

all i can do is scare them away

i don't want to scare them away

i don't want to scare anyone away really

i just want to make people smile with my retarded art and movies

why are 13 year olds so fucking retarded

i wish i could just go back

and tell myself what i actually should've done

my vhs movie is accurate

i am nothing but a creepy monster

howie if you are reading this

i am so fucking sorry

i don't want to scare you

i don't want to hurt you

i just want you to know i don't mean any harm and that i regret saying what i said about you

i don't want to drive you away from things you enjoy

you could bash my face onto a stove and burn my face off and i would be okay with it

as long as it makes you feel better after what i said