" What do you care? "

" No one cares about my feelings, about my life, about me. "

" It's not like I'm worth being cared about in the first place. "

Thoughts like these...they're powerful..but they isolate us. We grow so damn certain about these things because that struggle against them is there each and every day. We crumple under that weight with the growing sense that is the one truth, and only truth in this world.

We stop hearing the encouragement and begin to see it as mocking, as a lie. Some would say things like you and me have been weak for the way we have felt.

..but these painful things we feel..they're powerful...they don't just go away, because they're OUR belief. They're the one thing we've come to understand..that's why it is so painful, and so hard to see otherwise.

We sit with these beliefs in the world and in ourselves until one day something in us wants to change, and make no mistake..whatever we believe in..somewhere deep down inside all we want is to be happy again..in ourselves, in our lives. Somewhere deep down inside our hearts is that desire to be free again. It is the same power you have now, just...in a different way...

I think..you have the strength inside yourself to stand beside the demons you face each and every day, even if they are as abundant as they are persistent. Maybe you don't believe in that. Maybe you even truly believe that you are alone. like you.. I felt the same way and sometimes still do..so many of us do.

You're not alone...you're not worthless...you're you. You're worth the joys hearing your voice in this world..worth the sorrows ever knowing you turned away from it.

Like you, none of us are incapable, or irredeemable. Like you, we'll see this through. Be strong now...

inspired by Blujay's " StEv3n " which can be found here https://soundcloud.com/blujay55555/stev3n-blujay