Changing is something to do mentally; there are external, physical evidence of change but that only stems from the immense amount of work changing my own mentality. I feel when I am in a social interaction that I need to analyze people and worry about “Oh do they like me?” or “Oh, this person laughed at this, maybe I should act like that.” I know now that these things don’t matter and people will only accept me if I am present and not worrying about the voice in my head, because that voice takes my mind out of the interaction and I become awkward. I sit back and let others have the fun and then later wonder why I wasn’t part of it.