You don't have to read this

I would like to say that a lot of bad things have happened to me over the past few days. to be more precise, for a while I couldn't feel safe, and I had a big fight with a friend who did a lot of bad things, for example, brought me to a state where I was very angry, and for some reason it was always just me who was to blame. and a few days ago we had a fight because I didn't want to watch his stream on the discord server, the whole company that was sitting on the voice channel explained to him that what he was doing was very stupid. In addition, I can hardly fully express myself in front of anyone, and to some extent what is written here at the bottom is an outlet for me.