For years I've had this issue where I'd think and it just wouldn't stop, it would give way for constant worries, existential dread, fear for the future, my loved ones, myself, and anxiety. It would mentally tire me out and is one of the reason why I have had productivity issues.

Only recently have I been able to put this feeling into paper, which I am proud of, as it means I have a better understanding of what's happening. In the past I just felt bad and couldn't put into words what I was feeling, not even therapists could help me (but that's because they were bad at their jobs). Thankfully I have been going through therapy since last September, and she's the first person to finally get me.

In the end, I now understand I do not suffer from depression or anything pathological, instead I have a personnality quirk called "Oversensitivity", which boils down to "feeling everything tenfold compared to the average person" which answers many questions on stuff that happened in the past and now.

But I have yet to fully recover myself, as I need to fully accept for who I am. This is gonna be a long road, but it'll be worth it in the end.