"How many times have I held a knife to my wrists, but hesitated? Stood at the edge of a rooftop, but couldn't jump? Swallowed a bottle of sleeping pills, only to force them back up again? It's like buying a mountain of candy and forcing myself to devour it all, eating to spit it back out, and spitting it out to eat more. This endless cycle of binging and purging could go on for days."