Very moving... He's in a better place.
sometimes when things like this happen, one cant put themselves in a position such as the one you and Jai have been through. i may probably live halfway across the world from you, but i just want to give you my deepest sympathy in regards to what happened to your brother. "there isnt a reason to everything, but everything has a reason". everything that happens in life, there is a reason behind it. some we are able to find out, others we arent.
i may not know what your going through and yes, i may not be able to do anything except feel sorry for you (although i wish i could do more), but my advice and supporting words are this:
remember Jai and what a good brother he was, and think that even though it was a bad thing that happened, there was a reason behind it. it could be anything. i dont know, but i do know that the reason does balance with him sadly and regrettably loosing his life, and if you can keep that in mind, then realize and understand that even though Jai is gone, he left for something better.
i believe in god and i believe that life is a test. "why do we have to be good? why dont we be bad?" Even if there wasnt a god, dont you think that there has to be some sort of ultimate reward for people who choose to be good in life and a punishment for people who choose to be bad and cause others harm? that's why i believe in god. people like Jay shouldn't die and just dissapear, people like Jay should be able to reach a place that is better for them. in my case, i think that is heaven. if there wasnt a place, for people to go when they die, then is there really a purpose to being good or bad?
Jay was a good person, and i believe that people like him are going to a place that is better for them, a place that rewards them for voluntarily being good to others in life. so dont cry, hold your head up and believe that Jay is in a place like that. im not saying to go and change you religion, that's up to you. what i am saying is that throughout this ordeal, dont dread on the loss of your brother, hold your head up and smile at the fact that he is being rewarded in another life that we know nothing about.
i wish you all the best in life and remember to hold ur head up. Jai is gone, but FOR THE BETTER. remember that. :)
by,
RENEGADE10