Thought provoking, to say the least.
It is an error to assume that the work created and the statement created by the work are absolute reflections upon the creator.
If, however, this is a reflection of internal discontent, I would advise you to seek councilling.
Do NOT take this as a criticism, other than to say that you paint a very convincing picture of desperation and depression. If this was your intent, then Bravo! You have succeeded well enough to elicite this comment of concern.
Your Artistry is superb, Sir. I offer my profoundest hopes that it is not a reflection of your life.