I don't deserve any of your respect or kindness
I've spent my whole life crying like a little bitch
I deserve to be thrown in a fucking ditch
All that stops me from suicide is cowardice
I deserve the same hatred that I've spread on this planet
Regardless of me being molded into this unwillingly
I treat my family with hate and can't fucking stand it
I only suffer more from you not killing me
I wish everyone around me could suffer like me
My hatred is becoming a gateway to sociopathy
Bend me over and rape me until I'm bleeding everywhere
Beat me til my bones break off and I puke from the fear
A toy for the abuser is all I have ever been good for
I'm a dirty faggot, I'm the bitch, nothing more
Too much of a coward cunt to kill myself at all
A fucking pussy who's suffering will always be prolonged
You can't help me, you can't save me, you can't cure me
And you certainly can't convince me any of that is possible
You can't fix me, you can't tell me, I'll ever be happy
It's not physically or mentally possible, not at all
I deserve to fucking die a most bloody and gruesome death
And all of you deserve to watch me choke on my last breath
I want to rot, I want to decay, I want to kill myself
I pray there's an underworld, because I deserve hell
Don't you fucking dare tell me to love myself
I am fucking trash, and I don't deserve to live
Kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself, kill yourself
My mind is begging for death, but my body doesn't give a shit
Hate is all that I have known, that's never gonna change
The only release I'll ever have is when I'm fucking hanged
I didn't ask for schizophrenia, I didn't ask to be born
All I ask for is happiness, but all I'm given is scorn
I can't decide what I deserve more
To live a life of suffering, or die in a pile of gore
Fuck you, fuck me, and fuck everything
I can't explain my thoughts, so I just fucking scream