I live at my parent's and make game, mobile games.
I have made a few free games.
Free games I made had very high downloads (though most of them deleted soon after and gave me lower score) .
The impression I got was that "oh, if I make game then post it, then somebody downloads it"
So I somehow made this misguided assumption that it is somewhat "not too difficult" to sell paid app games.
I made my game, posted it on app store with home made video of play through, screenshots, and carefully written description.
Well it doesn't work. Not a single person buys my game.
I spent three weeks of making this game.
Yet no one... Not a single person.
This breaks my heart.
So, after, I have uploaded free version of my game and link to find it on app store on newgrounds as well.
Still zero dollar profit made.
It's not about money but I feel like my work is not even a dollar worth.
It's depressing and hurts my feelings.
I know I shouldn't expect to be "rich" at first shot. I told myself; of course I make no money and totally fail, because it is my first "paid app game". I need to try again and make new game and keep trying. But my spirit is sorta burned to ashes.
I thought maybe trying to be "indie game dev" is not the right option at the moment for me. But I don't want to give up. I want to keep making games.
I am trying to bring out what I have inside me. I opened my idea book and started to draw and write things. Plan weekly goal progress, test ideas by making prototype.
I know I am not going to give up trying to be a game dev. But right now, I am sad. Maybe it will take me a long time to actually be able to make living out of being indie game dev. But I really don't want to give up.